Another Letter.

"Let me tell you what I wish. I wish that we could just both disappear from where we are now and be in a cuccoon. I wish I could spend every minute of what time I have left with you. I wish that I could just fall into you and dream the dream of pure love with you forever.  I wish that I could make you feel things that you never knew existed. I would just want to be beside you, holding you and loving you.  

I have never felt this way in my life, and I think how ironic it is now that we are both entering the final quarter of our lives.  Neither of us know how much time God has planned for us.  I guess that is the scariest part for me.  If I could somehow know that in 2, 3, 5 or even ten years from now, He would arrange for us to be together, I could make it...but we don't get those kind of answers in life.  Do we do what we both know is the right thing and hope that God will favor us?

These are questions that I am yearning to know.  It's been a long tough day for me as I have been wrestling with these issues all day in my mind.  

I imagine in my fantasy world, what it would be like to come home to you each day.  Would our life together get old after a while?  It's hard for me to believe it would.  After all it's been 30 years, and it's like we have both rediscovered the same feelings that existed so long ago, except now they are so much more intense.

They have to be real and special and from our hearts where Christ resides."